● Daisy ●

Daisy Emily Guy,

You have no idea how much you are loved. You have no idea how beautiful you are. You have no idea how special you are.

You are not even a day old yet and already, my heart has burst with pride because I am able to call you my niece.

You have the world’s most beautiful, kind, and caring mummy who has a heart made of pure gold.

You have the world’s most incredible, funny, and loving daddy who will be an incredible parent just as he has been a big brother.

You are lucky enough to have family on both sides of the world who love you to the ends of the earth.

Thank you for giving me one of the most precious gifts anyone could ever receive; the chance to be your aunt.

Daisy, I love you to the moon and back.

Lots of love,

Auntie Megan xxx

Setting Goals

Hello, my lovelies. 

I know, I know. Some of you may be thinking "oh god here she is again, claiming she's back and that she wants to post more frequently blah blah blah". Well, you thought correctly! I'll have you know that I am basically the come-back queen! However, this time I am not here to make false promises as I know just as well as you do that I am down right bloody awful at fulfilling them. I am here to set myself a goal. 

This is the point in the blog post where I tell you how much I miss this and that this means a lot to me, which honestly, every single time I say that, I truly mean it! Over the past 5 months or so, both my blog and my YouTube have come to a complete halt and that terrifies me. Both of these things were my way of expressing myself and connecting with you all. The fact that it has been pretty much non-existent for so long (other than answering comments on some of my videos from time to time) is such a weird feeling. And the longer I'm leaving it, the harder it's becoming to start back up. 

So, my goal (note: I won't promise anything unless I know I can keep it - I think I wrote a blog post along these lines funnily enough…take your own advice, Meg!) is to post on here at least once a month. There. It's in writing now so I have to do it. I would preferably like to post once a week but I know that is going to be quite a tough goal to set at the moment. I would also like to post to my YouTube once a month however videos take twice as long to create and so that may be a working process to get back into but by at least the end of 2016, I want to be up and running again. 

Just a quick update on the life of Meg: I'm settled in my job now and I'm proud of myself. I've achieved a lot and my confidence is growing daily. I've made new friends in and out of work who I'm so grateful to have met and I'm almost 19. Maybe in my next post, I'll give a better update on everything. Who knows? 

Thank you for reading this far. As I always say (I'm a bit predictable really, aren't I?) I appreciate every single one of you and the fact that you're reading this means so much more to me than you probably even realise. 

Lots of love

Megan xxx

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

Hello, my lovelies!

I just wanted to write a really quick post to say that I hope you have had a very Merry Christmas and that I wish that your 2016 is incredible. 

I also wanted to quickly address my YouTube channel and my blog. I haven't been posting on here or my channel for the whole month of December and for the majority of November. This is because I am still getting used to my new job and I am trying to completely focus on that so I can learn everything quicker. This does not mean that I am stopping posting to either here or YouTube. These are both things I want to continue on with for as long as I enjoy them. However, I may be making a few changes. My blog is going to be more chatty and my YouTube will be more tutorial/music-based. This is something I am going to experiment with and, if it goes well, I may keep it that way. If it doesn't, I'll try something else. 

Thank you so much for being so supportive of my little hobbies this past year and I really hope I can continue making my videos and writing these blog posts for you to (hopefully) enjoy!

Lots of love

from 

Megan xxx

#PrayersForParis

It is difficult, no, impossible to be able to get my head around why any human being would want to physically or mentally harm or kill another for any reason but it is even worse knowing that some feel that they have the right to harm or kill those who are innocent. 

When the Paris attacks were happening yesterday evening, I was in a state of ignorant bliss and I was enjoying spending time with my friends. The irony is that prior to these attacks, these people were carrying out their days as normal like myself enjoying spending time with their own family and friends. Now, however, these people are mourning, some are injured, and some are dead. Lives have been shattered, torn apart, ruined and ended because of the absolutely disgusting, vile and inhumane acts carried out by people (can I even class them as 'people') I can only describe as scum. 

I will be honest, as soon as I found out eventually last night, I tried to block it out. The thought of it petrified me and I wanted to stay ignorant to it all, selfishly. I did become frightened and the thought of having to go to London for my work courses petrified me. This is what these spiteful and careless beings want.

With my opinions on these vile monsters who have done this being said, what has been said is all I will say regarding them. My attention now turns to you. Whoever you are. If you are a kind, good, compassionate human being, I am talking to you. 

Please never ever take those you love for granted. Right now, stop reading this and go and give your family a hug and tell them you love them and that you care. Go out for the day with your friends. Don't be scared. Be brave. We are going to prove we are strong and that this behaviour is not something we will bow down to and accept. We all now need to stick together and stand up for what is right and good and that is to truly love and be kind to one another. It is such a simple and effortless thing to do, so why do people drain every last drop of their energy to spread hatred and fear? 

Some people have said that changing their Facebook profile picture to the French flag will not help. However, I disagree. It may not physically help those who are in critical conditions or those who are now dead, but it may mentally help those grieving or even those who are in physical pain to know that people all over the world have them in their thoughts and prayers. It is a simple gesture to say we are united, we care, and we will not sit and take this.

I will end this by saying I genuinely am so sorry to those of you who are in pain due to these attacks. I am praying for you and I am thinking about you. Rest in peace those who's lives have been taken. And to the rest of the world (and I am aware more events have been happening globally) I pray for you too. 

#PrayersForParis and #PrayersForTheWorld 

I hope you are all okay and well. Goodnight, my lovelies. All my love, Megan xxx

Long Life Update!

Hello, my lovelies!

I hope you are all really well and that you had an incredible summer. I had a lovely one!

As I'm sitting here on this rather chilly October evening, listening to Disney songs snuggled under the duvet and reading Zoella's blog posts, I got a real urge to post something to my own blog. I really want to get back to writing regularly. However, I cannot think for the life of me what exactly you would all like to read and so my default idea is an update. I will do this for you today but I will try and get much more creative with this as time goes on. 

When I wrote on here last, I told you that I was almost finished with college. I can tell you that I did complete my time there (thank goodness!) and I got my results; two Ds (Music Technology & English Literature) and one C (Photography). Although some people would not be overly happy with these results, I have now began to feel proud of them. I have never worked well under pressure and so, for me, I believe those results are brilliant. 

Since I left, I have been job hunting and I can tell you that I am now waiting to start my new job! This is a HUGE step for me with my anxiety so I am completely over the moon and cannot wait to start. 

Now for the summer update! I went on my first girly holiday to Bulgaria (22nd June - 29th June 2015) with my two beautiful best friends, Sarah and Hannah. We went to Sunny Beach for one week and we had such a relaxing time. I put a few snippets of my trip in a little video on my YouTube channel and so, if you would like to see, I will pop the link to that particular video at the end of this post. Here are a few little pictures for you all! 

My besties: Sarah [left], Hannah [right]

Cocktails: Sex on the Beach, Blue Lagoon, Green Dragon and Tequila Sunrise

The week I got back from Bulgaria, myself and my family went on a day trip to Bruges, Belgium (4th July 2015). We walked around to look at the beautiful surroundings, went on a canal boat and a horse carriage ride, and (most importantly) tried Belgian chocolate and ice cream (it was really nice). Even though Belgium is beautiful, after sleeping in a different bed to my own for a week, I was glad to get home that evening. Here a few little snaps I got from this trip. 

Canal boat ride in Bruges

The final thing I will talk about in this post (because this is ridiculously long now) is when I went to my first ever festival (Reading Festival) for the day with my lovely best friends, Hannah and Sarah. Admittedly, Reading Festival does not have the music I usually gravitate towards, but I decided to give it a try. I am so glad I did because I absolutely loved it. The atmosphere, some of the bands that performed, the different music tents, and the fact that a lot of my friends were there to meet up with. Even though I'm not sure if I could camp at a festival, next time may be a good time to give it a try. Here are some pictures from our day at Reading Festival, Saturday 29th August 2015. 

So I think I'm going to stop here. I did SO much more this summer but those were the main things (and also were the only things I ended up getting some decent pictures for). Also this post is going on for too long and, lets be honest, you mainly clicked on this for the pictures ;) 

Anyway I am off now. I really hope you liked this post. I am going to try and work out a day (once I'm working) when I can devote my evening to writing/posting a blog post since I miss doing this. 

Thank you so much for reading! I will speak to you soon. 

Lots of love

Megan xxx

P.S Here are a few links for you all to go and check out…

• 'First Girl's Holiday - Top Ten Tips!' YouTube video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NiW9-CKUD_U
• My YouTube channel (currently at 94 subscribers!): https://www.youtube.com/user/meganroseguy
• My Twitter: @meganroseguy1
• My Instagram: meganroseguy

xxx

My Little Update.

Hello, my lovelies 

I have decided that this blog will be more in the form of diary entries at this little period in my life. This doesn't mean I won't go back to reviewing face powders and pretending I know about fashion (not mocking btw - if anything I'm mocking myself) but for now this is what is keeping me sane.

I'm terrified

Okay bye!

No but seriously. I truly am. I don't know what to make of all this. I go to a college where not everybody knows each other so leaving college isn't really a big loss to me. I've made some incredible friends, however, who oh my goodness I would absolutely love to keep as long as they want to keep me. I have met my boyfriend who makes me so happy and cares about me and I also hope he can still put up with me in his life. I am grateful to the college for putting these people in classes with me.  

I'm also grateful that the college provided me with anxiety help which included counselling. I understand that this doesn't benefit everyone and it 100% does not cure everyone and that includes me. But I appreciate this counsellor so much. She has stuck by me for a whole year now and was kind and lovely to me before my anxiety became a huge deal. She is a lovely person and the thought of next Tuesday being my final session with her well and truly frightens me. It not only means less support, but it also means that somebody who has really made an impact on me (she probably doesn't even know it) is someone who I will not be allowed contact with anymore. And for that I'm very sad.

I'm also anxiously excited to explore the world. My first journey without family - a girls holiday to Bulgaria. I'm dreading the plane journeys but I am excited nevertheless. It'll be a fun and unforgettable experience with two of the best friends I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. 

Then comes a job. I don't feel as if uni is the right way for me and so a job is where I'm off to. I'm petrified. As with everything else I'm my life, I'm petrified. I shouldn't be and I don't want to be, but I am. And it's daunting.

That's all from me tonight. Exam tomorrow morning...should be revising but low and behold it's 12 in the morning now so probably not a great idea.

I'll speak to you soon, lovelies.

Goodnight from the UK!

from

Megan xxx 

Down Days

Hello, my lovelies

I know I haven't been on here for a while and I've honestly had some lovely blog posts planned, I have just never gotten round to finishing them because of all the stuff that, quite frankly, makes me feel down. This is a very random spur of the moment post I wanted to share with you all that I've literally only just had to urge to write. I don't know where I'm going with it, but all I know is that I just need to let my emotions run wild.

I have been finding things difficult recently. Not many people are aware but I just am. And it's nobody's fault. I have been snapping at people and being rude unintentionally (not that that makes everything okay but I thought it would be only fair on me to mention), I have felt the need to bitch, I have been tackling anxiety and mainly failing at tackling it and it all seems too much for me.

There has been a time this month where I have had a thought that I am possibly suffering depression. I may sound completely ignorant now but from what I have heard from friends who have depression themselves, some of the ways I have been acting and feeling haven't been to far away from their depression experiences. However, I am not going to go and diagnose myself again like I did with anxiety at first (although I wasn't wrong, was I?) (just to let you know, I have been diagnosed by professionals with anxiety disorder since my last blog post. I forgot to mention!) and I am not just assuming thats what it is. I just like to call the times I feel this way a 'downer' or 'downer days' if the feelings last for a long time. I believe today is one of them.

I don't want anybody reading to feel sympathy or even feel upset. (I would never want to upset you guys. It's just how I'm feeling) I just needed to vent and explain myself.

I'm coming to a point in life where I genuinely am scared. I don't know what's in store - I usually like to know exactly what's coming. I don't know what is happening specifically once I leave college. I don't know how my first girls holiday to Bulgaria will go (been so long I know! I'm going to Bulgaria with my two best friends. Exciting! but scary too) I don't know how the future is looking and it genuinely concerns, frustrates, and worries me which makes the anxiety spiral at times.

I don't know. Have you guys ever felt this way?

Thanks for reading.

I genuinely appreciate it all.

Lots of love
Megan xxx