Thank You

Hello, my lovelies!

Before I begin this post, I just want to say a huge thank you to those of you who have taken the time out of your week to read this and my previous posts! I know it sounds silly but I was incredibly nervous about even posting the blog onto the Internet, let alone actually writing content on it for everyone to see! However, the feedback that I have gained has been amazing so far so thank you so so much everyone! I hope that all of my future posts are just as enjoyable for you.

So these past few weeks have been mad. I have actually made friends with people who I’ve never met before and managed to keep them for a whole week without scaring the crap out of them! If you know me personally (which probably all of you do) you will know that I am not the biggest people person and I am very much a stutterer. I cannot get through one sentence without having to repeat a word or the whole sentence again so I am shocked that I have achieved full, deep and meaningful conversations with these people without barely any stuttering. The strangest part is, these friends are not just from college but they are through parties (which I am still quite new to). One of my party friends that I met only a week ago spoke to me the other night and we got into a ‘DMC’ (Deep and Meaningful Convo …if you didn’t know like I didn’t only a few days ago!) about life. There was one thing she said on this topic which was ‘it will get better’ after I said stuff about my socially awkward self. Since last week, I still hadn’t realised my life was already getting better because I was gaining more confidence by the day.

Speaking of confidence, a few weeks ago (this is where I am about to get into a ‘DMC’ with you guys…bare with me) I didn’t feel ready to take such a big step from secondary school to college. I felt as if I was the only person who felt the way I did and that everyone else found it easy to make friends and to enjoy themselves and to get through a lesson without feeling nervous about answering a small question. But over the weeks, I’ve learnt that I have been wrong. I have been ready to start college for a long time, I just didn’t understand why. Starting a new college meant that I could almost reinvent myself into an approachable person instead of one that only socialised with a small group of people (like I did in secondary school). It meant that I could pluck up the courage to put up my hand and answer that small question that I knew I was right about and was dying to share with everyone. It meant that I could be happy and not be ashamed of who I am and what I enjoy doing which is this blog, singing and making friends. So, from a few weeks ago to now, I feel like I am suddenly able to fit in and yet be myself.

Sorry that this post has just been me rambling about my problems. However, I rambled for a reason. This post has focused on my confidence issues, my stuttering and fitting in. This post was to let you know that if you are feeling the way I have been for these past few weeks right now, everything will get better. You may have been told this by many people but please trust me when I say I never thought I would have as many friends as I do now, be as confident as I am now, and be as proud of myself as I am now a few weeks ago. But I have got friends, I am confident and I am proud to be me now. And you will too. I promise.

If you feel that you ever need someone to talk to, even if you have never spoken to me in your life or you’re one of my closest friends, please do not hesitate to talk to me and I will do my very best to make you motivated and on the path to being as happy as I am.

Again, thank you for your support. As cheesy as it may sound, the fact that you’re reading this right now is making me feel much more confident and happy.

Before I go, I just want to ask you guys a quick question. You don’t have to answer underneath the blog. If you know me, you can tweet me, Instagram comment of text me but would you guys be interested if, next week, I had a go at a cover and posted it to YouTube? It’s just a thought and I’ll only do it if you’re interested.

Next week, I’ll post something much less depressing I promise you! :’)

Love you lot so much!

Big Midget Girl Hugs!

Megan xxx

P.S. Have I changed much from Year 6 to Year 12? :')