Long Life Update!

Hello, my lovelies!

I hope you are all really well and that you had an incredible summer. I had a lovely one!

As I'm sitting here on this rather chilly October evening, listening to Disney songs snuggled under the duvet and reading Zoella's blog posts, I got a real urge to post something to my own blog. I really want to get back to writing regularly. However, I cannot think for the life of me what exactly you would all like to read and so my default idea is an update. I will do this for you today but I will try and get much more creative with this as time goes on. 

When I wrote on here last, I told you that I was almost finished with college. I can tell you that I did complete my time there (thank goodness!) and I got my results; two Ds (Music Technology & English Literature) and one C (Photography). Although some people would not be overly happy with these results, I have now began to feel proud of them. I have never worked well under pressure and so, for me, I believe those results are brilliant. 

Since I left, I have been job hunting and I can tell you that I am now waiting to start my new job! This is a HUGE step for me with my anxiety so I am completely over the moon and cannot wait to start. 

Now for the summer update! I went on my first girly holiday to Bulgaria (22nd June - 29th June 2015) with my two beautiful best friends, Sarah and Hannah. We went to Sunny Beach for one week and we had such a relaxing time. I put a few snippets of my trip in a little video on my YouTube channel and so, if you would like to see, I will pop the link to that particular video at the end of this post. Here are a few little pictures for you all! 

My besties: Sarah [left], Hannah [right]

Cocktails: Sex on the Beach, Blue Lagoon, Green Dragon and Tequila Sunrise

The week I got back from Bulgaria, myself and my family went on a day trip to Bruges, Belgium (4th July 2015). We walked around to look at the beautiful surroundings, went on a canal boat and a horse carriage ride, and (most importantly) tried Belgian chocolate and ice cream (it was really nice). Even though Belgium is beautiful, after sleeping in a different bed to my own for a week, I was glad to get home that evening. Here a few little snaps I got from this trip. 

Canal boat ride in Bruges

The final thing I will talk about in this post (because this is ridiculously long now) is when I went to my first ever festival (Reading Festival) for the day with my lovely best friends, Hannah and Sarah. Admittedly, Reading Festival does not have the music I usually gravitate towards, but I decided to give it a try. I am so glad I did because I absolutely loved it. The atmosphere, some of the bands that performed, the different music tents, and the fact that a lot of my friends were there to meet up with. Even though I'm not sure if I could camp at a festival, next time may be a good time to give it a try. Here are some pictures from our day at Reading Festival, Saturday 29th August 2015. 

So I think I'm going to stop here. I did SO much more this summer but those were the main things (and also were the only things I ended up getting some decent pictures for). Also this post is going on for too long and, lets be honest, you mainly clicked on this for the pictures ;) 

Anyway I am off now. I really hope you liked this post. I am going to try and work out a day (once I'm working) when I can devote my evening to writing/posting a blog post since I miss doing this. 

Thank you so much for reading! I will speak to you soon. 

Lots of love

Megan xxx

P.S Here are a few links for you all to go and check out…

• 'First Girl's Holiday - Top Ten Tips!' YouTube video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NiW9-CKUD_U
• My YouTube channel (currently at 94 subscribers!): https://www.youtube.com/user/meganroseguy
• My Twitter: @meganroseguy1
• My Instagram: meganroseguy

xxx

My Little Update.

Hello, my lovelies 

I have decided that this blog will be more in the form of diary entries at this little period in my life. This doesn't mean I won't go back to reviewing face powders and pretending I know about fashion (not mocking btw - if anything I'm mocking myself) but for now this is what is keeping me sane.

I'm terrified

Okay bye!

No but seriously. I truly am. I don't know what to make of all this. I go to a college where not everybody knows each other so leaving college isn't really a big loss to me. I've made some incredible friends, however, who oh my goodness I would absolutely love to keep as long as they want to keep me. I have met my boyfriend who makes me so happy and cares about me and I also hope he can still put up with me in his life. I am grateful to the college for putting these people in classes with me.  

I'm also grateful that the college provided me with anxiety help which included counselling. I understand that this doesn't benefit everyone and it 100% does not cure everyone and that includes me. But I appreciate this counsellor so much. She has stuck by me for a whole year now and was kind and lovely to me before my anxiety became a huge deal. She is a lovely person and the thought of next Tuesday being my final session with her well and truly frightens me. It not only means less support, but it also means that somebody who has really made an impact on me (she probably doesn't even know it) is someone who I will not be allowed contact with anymore. And for that I'm very sad.

I'm also anxiously excited to explore the world. My first journey without family - a girls holiday to Bulgaria. I'm dreading the plane journeys but I am excited nevertheless. It'll be a fun and unforgettable experience with two of the best friends I've ever had the pleasure of knowing. 

Then comes a job. I don't feel as if uni is the right way for me and so a job is where I'm off to. I'm petrified. As with everything else I'm my life, I'm petrified. I shouldn't be and I don't want to be, but I am. And it's daunting.

That's all from me tonight. Exam tomorrow morning...should be revising but low and behold it's 12 in the morning now so probably not a great idea.

I'll speak to you soon, lovelies.

Goodnight from the UK!

from

Megan xxx 

Down Days

Hello, my lovelies

I know I haven't been on here for a while and I've honestly had some lovely blog posts planned, I have just never gotten round to finishing them because of all the stuff that, quite frankly, makes me feel down. This is a very random spur of the moment post I wanted to share with you all that I've literally only just had to urge to write. I don't know where I'm going with it, but all I know is that I just need to let my emotions run wild.

I have been finding things difficult recently. Not many people are aware but I just am. And it's nobody's fault. I have been snapping at people and being rude unintentionally (not that that makes everything okay but I thought it would be only fair on me to mention), I have felt the need to bitch, I have been tackling anxiety and mainly failing at tackling it and it all seems too much for me.

There has been a time this month where I have had a thought that I am possibly suffering depression. I may sound completely ignorant now but from what I have heard from friends who have depression themselves, some of the ways I have been acting and feeling haven't been to far away from their depression experiences. However, I am not going to go and diagnose myself again like I did with anxiety at first (although I wasn't wrong, was I?) (just to let you know, I have been diagnosed by professionals with anxiety disorder since my last blog post. I forgot to mention!) and I am not just assuming thats what it is. I just like to call the times I feel this way a 'downer' or 'downer days' if the feelings last for a long time. I believe today is one of them.

I don't want anybody reading to feel sympathy or even feel upset. (I would never want to upset you guys. It's just how I'm feeling) I just needed to vent and explain myself.

I'm coming to a point in life where I genuinely am scared. I don't know what's in store - I usually like to know exactly what's coming. I don't know what is happening specifically once I leave college. I don't know how my first girls holiday to Bulgaria will go (been so long I know! I'm going to Bulgaria with my two best friends. Exciting! but scary too) I don't know how the future is looking and it genuinely concerns, frustrates, and worries me which makes the anxiety spiral at times.

I don't know. Have you guys ever felt this way?

Thanks for reading.

I genuinely appreciate it all.

Lots of love
Megan xxx

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year

Hello, my lovelies!

I just wanted to write a very quick post just to let you know that I hope you have an absolutely amazing Christmas and an equally amazing New Year! 

Thank you for all the support you have given me on this blog for over a year and also for all the support when starting my YouTube Channel in 2014. It really has made my whole year. 

I hope you enjoyed all the videos and blog posts, especially the ones in the last couple of months!

I love you all lots. 

Lots of love

from 

Megan xxx

P.S Strive to make 2015 one of the best years of your life. I know I will.

Skin Care Routine!

Hello, my lovelies!

Hope you're all well. 

Today I wanted to talk to you about a new skin care routine I have begun to try out. I know this isn't the most interesting topic for some but it may help some of you out which is always good. 

As I say at the beginning of all of these 'product' blog posts/ videos, I have not been sponsored by any of the brands mentioned today. I am just talking about them and my opinions on them.  

So for quite some time, I have been using the Clinique skin care range on my face and I have always felt that it has worked very well up until about 2 months ago when my skin began to get very dry and flakey. I have always thought that my skin was listed under the 'combination' category (combination of dry and oily skin) and so because of this, I was using what was recommended to me by one of the lovely ladies at Clinique. Just to let you know, although these products are expensive and they are now not working so well for me, I do not regret buying them as they have been treating me well for around 2-3 years now and so I would recommend you look into them or get a little skin appointment booked with one of the staff at the Clinique counters in Boots nearest to you so that they can tell you what your skin type is. 

Now you may be thinking that there is no reason for you to check your skin type with Clinique if my skin has been playing up due to the products (although it is not just the products - it is me not eating or drinking healthy too!) but I believe that my skin type has changed within a 3 year time period and so I don't see why yours couldn't change to. 

I just wanted to give you some background knowledge before going into the new routine. 

I watched Emma Blackery's video on how to get rid of blackheads and spots (I will link that video at the end of the blog post if you're interested) and she mentioned Tea Tree products which I spotted whilst out with my mum and sister shopping in The Body Shop. 

Basically, whilst I was in there, I was told that Tea Tree products wouldn't be right for me and that I would be better off with 'Seaweed' products which are very gentle to skin as I NOW have 'dry' and 'sensitive' skin. I totally agree now since, as I mentioned before, my skin has been very flakey and I suppose tight. 

So I have got the 'Seaweed Deep Cleansing Facial Wash' which I have to use alongside a face scrub brush which is used to exfoliate (which comes separately), the 'Seaweed Mattifying Day Cream' which works as a moisturiser, and I also got (separately from the 'Seaweed' range) the 'Aloe Calming Toner' which says on the bottle that it is for sensitive skin and that it is a 'comforting, conditioning toning liquid proven to purify without irritating'. 

Here are some images of the products in case you're interested or you are looking for some products to try out along with me if you have dry and sensitive skin too…

'Seaweed Deep Cleansing Facial Wash' & Scrub Brush

'Seaweed Mattifying Day Cream'

'Aloe Calming Toner'

So yeah I will be trying out those products and hopefully, by the end of this month, I will notice a change in my skin (it sounds silly but I can already feel and see a VERY slight positive change…and thats after using it for a day!) 

Thank you for reading

Speak to you soon

I love you all loads

Megan xxx

P.S Here is the link to Emma Blackery's video…https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NhVWXQUQMdo

P.P.S ALERT!!! Here is another Christmassy clue for you all! Hmmm…what could this video be?!?!

December Uploads Update

Hello, my lovelies!

Now this is going to be a very short blog post (hopefully - I ramble on a bit, I know). I won't be adding a clue on the end of this one but I have been working on another blog post so the next post will have another Christmassy clue.

However I do have some news on the Christmas upload schedule and I'd love to tell you the news is good (although it could be for some, it could be bad for others, and some of you may not even care haha!)

I have decided that, for this year, I should scrap the idea of the project 'Dear December'. I have written and recorded the audio for a lot of the letters and I have been asking a lot of people to contribute by writing letters on certain days but I have decided that on top of my English, Music and Photography coursework deadlines and also alongside the many other Christmassy videos I will be uploading, it may all just become a bit too much. Both for myself and for you guys who may feel a little overwhelmed by how many videos I'm posting.

This is not to say that I will never do the project - I am taking a gap year next year and so I think it may be a little easier then, but until then, I don't think I have the time or patience to film, edit, and upload 30 odd videos all in one busy month. I really hope you understand.

Thank you for reading
I love you all so much
Speak to you soon
Megan xxx

Prank Calling & Spreading Rumours

Hello, my lovelies!

This post is gonna be a little more serious than some others I've posted but stick around till the end as it is important to me.

Now I'm not going to sit here and tell you that I have never in my life prank called somebody. The thing is, I have actually been one of the people that finds prank calling absolutely hysterical which makes me pretty damn awful at it anyway! If I were to ever prank call somebody, the prank would be purely un-hurtful and something that would hopefully make the person on the other end of the line laugh with me.

Recently, somebody who I am very close to received a prank call from a 'No Caller ID' number (which I also have done so PLEASE do not think I am being hypocritical in any manner here) where some false information was given to them about a person they are close to. The information was of a sexual nature and therefore made the person incredibly uncomfortable and angered hearing it. When the information about this person was told to them, they were taken aback, they were hurt and they were lost for words.

You may be thinking 'Megan, why on earth is this bothering you so much?!' Well let me tell you. I know first hand what it feels like to have rumours thrown around about you which are untrue. It hurts and can damage you. Imagine if the prank caller called someone else instead of my close friend who knew the information was rubbish. This person could have begun to spread rumours upon rumours upon rumours and everything would have spiralled out of control and, by the time it reached the person spoken about, it could have been distorted and lots of people would know of the rumour.

I know I'm taking this very seriously and, I think, rightly so. Pranking is funny to a certain extent. But using your 'power' to prank (I use this word as I can't think of any other word for it) to potentially hurt someone, even if in the moment you find it hilarious, is wrong.

Think before you act. Not JUST when pranking someone. In ALL scenarios. 

Thank you for reading. 

Speak to you soon

I love you all so much

Megan xxx

P.S Slightly less serious topic. 'Av a look at this Christmassy Clue…